it's been so long sence i have writen on here that i don;t even know where to begin. well i guess i should start with moving to south carolina which was not fun, not thew bus ride nor the first week or so. i know now why i did it but i still wonder what would be differen't had i just stayed. well for one jade and kc would have proble made me pull all my hair out. i regret notspending more time with every one when i was there mainly Christine and my ever opptomistic sister Amanda but my hope in life is to not be here for too long and make my way back to the north i have unfinished business.

yep chillin at daves you know hanging out and building tv stands and watching out to sea. Where did your mom see me i wonder. i don't really have much to say so i'm off but hope to see you soon and lot of love to the one and only Christine <3

it has been a long time seens i wrote any thing on here but i promised a special person that i would post once and a while. any how the past couple of days have been quite interesting and i can't wait to see what will happen tomarrow. i'm really hoping that Your parents aren't to pissed at you. i don't think i got a good first impression but it doesn't matter that much. i ment what i said i really do care for you this is just a hole new thing and i'm not sure how to make it work but i'll try. see you soon i hope.

Today was a good day and a bad i first had to go to work (bad) then i had to go to court which isn't bad per say but i got a 200 dollar fine which is bad. but on the way home i got to drive and when i finaly told my mom i had court she wasn't that upset (+) and then to top off my day i went on line and found out Christina hadn't forgot about me and that she misses me as much as i miss her. i really hope i get to see her before i go away for school. g2g lots of sleep ahead.

i am sad

well i just got done reading Christinas journal and i feel bad for makeing her upset but i really wasn't trying to treat her like a little girl but i was just really tired and i was in the middle of doing some thing with my mom so i couldn't relly talk to her. i would really like to talk to her right now but she is at her dads and i don't know the number there. thats all i really have to say so i'm just going to go back to doing nothing for the rest of the day. (sigh)

to day i mean earlyer today was quit an interesting thing there was a good part and a bad part but more with my feelings than in actuality like for the first part of the day it was good i aced my econimic test so plus there i got to see my favorite person in the world twice this morning so plus plus then i had no more work for the rest of the day plus again. then it happend i don't know what it was but i had this really bad feeling that a bad thing was happening or was going to which set the course of things to come i met up with christina on her way to lunch and there was some thing wrong i'm still not sure what it is but the rest of the day i tryed to get her to spill. final when i was in 11th period i go at least a smirk on her face but still she seemed gloomy so being frustrated i went out in to the hall to collect my self and one of her friend comes out and tells me "she not mad at you she just has alot of things on her mind" then the bell rang and she came out to meet me end then i knew how much i really cared about her she came up behind me and huged me from behind which was a very nice surprise. it was the kind of thing that just make you feel so good in side that nothing else matters. i turned around to meet her face to face and she seemed less meloncoly and we kissed for so long that we were both late and i was right next to my class. this was the BIG PLUS of my day in those few minuets every bad part of my day was lifted and i was happy once again. i still don't know what was wrong with christina today but i do know that i love this girl.

i'm suppose to be working but i got myself a few seconds to type befor i forget last night. it started when kc got off work and chris kc and i went to jades it started simply enoughf with some drinking games and then some fosball. then as the night pressed on i we setteled down for a movie when this happend jade tossed a blanket at david whom was already there and knocked the cherry off his cigerret and it went in to the chair and started it on fire. jades house is always fun. another thing that happend yesterday was before we left for jades i tryed to call christina and instead of her i got her mom she was not happy. the reason for this was because christina was cought steeling and smokeing her mom cigerrets. so now Christina is grounded from the phone for a long time. this makes me sad because i just like to hear her voice. i was looking forward to going to her house for dinner but she is at her dads for the weekend. i wish she could just come and be with me. the vibe she has just makes me so happy. well break time up c ya. and Christina your in trouble but i still love you

I have been the happiest person latly proble because me and christina are going out and besides her being beautiful she is really cool to hang with. the oly prob is she never calls me back which is understandable but i like to pick on her about it. we got to spend some time togeather today after school and that was awsome. i love the way she kisses i was so close to taking her into the dark room so we wouldn't be interupted but it was locked.well i should be a sleep so i'm off to have another night full of dreams of the one i love.

This weekend has been so crazy. it first started when i decided to go hang out with my friend George at his house in angola. then after watching a movie there i fell asleep and when i woke it was morning and my ride home had already left for work. so i thought i could get a ride home from george but i couldn't because his " woman " had to got to work so i had to wait by the time kate got home the weather got really bad and she didn't want to drive so i call my mom and stayed again. now it is sunday and the MFX show is today so i'm sure to get a ride home at 12:00. but when we woke up at 10:00 it was still snowing out so george and i waited for 5 hours then we had to cancel the show so i didn't get to go. so then i called my mom and had her give me Christina's phone number so i could call her and tell her that i wan't going to be there. when i called some man picked up I think it was her step dad and he said she was not home. this made me very upset because i really wanted to see christine because i had a shity weekend and now i'm even sadder because now we don't have school and thats like the only place i get to see her:(. well now i'm finaly home and i'm going to try and call her tomarrow.

I'm really sorry Christina and i miss u hope i get a hold of you tomarrow.

wow i like christina. and i almost died to day overdosing on bronkade is kida stupid way to go. any how i think that it would be a shame to die now that things are going so well with Christina and i can't wait to go to school just so i can be around her. and Hey reachel i'm like 18 not 34 ok well i'm suppose to be working so bye

I had an awsome day i don't have to work no one is home at my house and i just read that the girl i like also like me and it sound kind of kidish but i realy do like her the best part of the day is when i hugged her se smelled so good and i kissed her on the neck and i wonder if she noticed but it made me feel so good.

Today was not that bad of a day and other than work i had a good time. i wonder to myself if a new girl in my life is a good thing or not. i only wonder because i have found a girl who remaind a mystery, a mystery i would like to know more about. all i know is her name and age which is what confuses me how can a girl who is 14 come off to be more like 18. it is kind of frustrating but i still like her. she is 5'9 140lb dark haired and eyes that can steel your attention at a single glance what is it about this girl that is so interesting. she even has me up at 3:30 writing about her. i feel so inmature feeling this way and i can't shake it. well i'm going to try and sleep